A mild case of craziness

Okay so this isn't an important topic or whatnot,
but I think I have a slight case of trypophobia.

Basically it is a phobia where one is afraid or discomforted by holes that are in clusters. This kind of sounds confusing but here are a few examples I found from another website:



and



I don't know what it is, but it slightly freaks me out. For some people it makes them feel sick to their stomach. I'm glad that I'm not of that case but still man, it's not pleasant to look at right?

On another note,

I recently bought a new blush.
I've been using NARS "Orgasm" for a while, and it is a nice blush, but I wanted something slightly different. (Not totally different, cause I still like those pinky colours)
So I bought the Diorshow Powder in "Catwalk Pink".
It's in this really cute case and it's really really nice. It looks really natural.
Totally recommend it!



AND on another note,
I've decided to step up and try out the position of Missions Director at my church. They basically look over the ministry of evangelizing and missions. BUT just to see whether this is where God wants me to be, I'm going to help out with Operation Joy. It is the second project from Operation Kindness that Taein through the B.A.S.I.C. group is hosting. It's very similar to Operation Christmas Child, but instead of making a shoebox filled with gifts for one child, it's making an entire family package of presents for one family. So it's kind of like 'adopting a family'.

First thing first is that I have to figure out how to fundraise money to buy the gifts that we as a church will decide on. I don't have too much fundraising experience but I do have some ideas. I will have to pray about it more. Nevertheless I am excited! I think I feel most alive in my faith when I am actively serving, so praise God!

I love unnies.

Ah Here's a nice picture update!

Last week I got to play with Grace, Esther, Deborah, and Ji!
It was such a well executed night of fun.
I hope we get to do it again!


The night started off with devouring a craving that some of us had: JJAM JJA MYUN! The best creation since the creation of jja jja myun and jjam bbong individually.



And THEN we decided to hit up the nrb, HOW I missed it (from Korea days). If I ever got one for Christmas I would never find a job because I would just stay home and sing for hours on end. (Oh wait I already do that). Anyways! Here is JI singing like an ANGEL!



And here is Esther, Grace, and Deborah who all took part! YES even Grace!!


And of course ms. Esther singing!! She sang the infamous 'Ken Lee', it was too great.

Then we decided to go to Soban for some yummy treats. I didn't know that their waffles would be half decent!







...for some reason the picture I took of Ji and the waffle is NOT working. bummer. and why are these pictures so small! oh well next time!


All in all it was a great night with some God-loving women. I hope we do movie night sometime and I hope at that movie night I can make someone play Hotel 626 with me! It's an online game that is apparently really scary and I'm too much of a wuss to play it by myself.

PS. Those cosmetic products+different types of boys+possible drastic hair colour change blogs are coming up so very soon...

A tipsy post

Ah, I love the thoughts I have when I am tipsy.
I just came back from a birthday party and the alcohol is almost all worn off.
That with a mix of tiredness seemed like the perfect mindset for me to update my blog.

(No I did not take this picture. Ildo or Joel did. Either way I wish I did).

Anyways, a statement I claim: There's a difference between drawing within the lines being chained than drawing within the lines with no chains.

It seems like an obvious thing for many people but for myself it is difficult for me to fully realize in my own life.

A question: do our own constructs keep us captive our entire lives? and are we all in denial? For some reason, I have this deep belief that we are all in denial all the time. Here are some other beliefs that I have that I often don't openly say:

- We are always in a constant state of awareness of those around us and how loved they project to be
- We are...yes all in denial always, of something.
- We unconsciously wake up in the morning and ask our inner selves, "so, what mask should I put on today?" I think I can count on one hand how many people I know that don't seem to ask this question (well in my eyes...my narrow...blind eyes).
- Our walls protecting our heart are thicker than we think.

HAHA I seem so critical and judgmental right now. I guess I am that kind of person. For me there is a fine line between being judgmental and perceptive. Anyways I find people interesting. Like really really interesting. Even people that I have known for a long time. 'Why did they do that?' 'Why do they say this or that?' 'Why are they looking at whatsover like that'? I always come to a conclusion in my head no matter whether it is right or wrong. I guess for me, I need to have some sort of answers, whether they be correct or not for me to have some peace of mind. I am waiting for the day when I meet that one person where I don't have the answers so easily. Then again now that I think about it, the answers have not always come so easily. People are so deep and profound and I love that.

I wish I did a blog right now about all the different types of guys I have ever been somewhat 'involved' with. I have categories and intricate criticisms. Funny ones I think! I will one day when I have enough energy. Right now I'm so tired!

I'm a lazy donkey.

Have you ever been so lazy that you were so sick of yourself that you needed to ignore the fact that you were so lazy that instead of getting busy, decided to stuff yourself with food and watch random things on youtube till the guilty feelings went away?

Okay well that is me these days.
I always love Sundays, not only because of church. (Am I nerd for liking church?)
BUT because it means that tomorrow is Monday!
Which means that I can have this ill-disguised notion that I have a fresh new start of my life with Monday because it's the start of a new week!
I will try to hold true this time..-_-

My mom is going to Korea tonight and she's staying there for a month. I'm so sad. I don't want her to leave, she's my human security blanket in a way.

I decided that I'm going to step up and serve at church. I've been meaning to for a while now since I've been back from Korea, but I guess I never really took the time to talk to Pastor Young about it. WELL I suppose I shall ask God where I should serve...

Three things are coming in the mail this week!
1. My books I ordered from Amazon weeks ago. I love fresh new books. I've loved them ever since elementary school when the Scholastic book orders would magically arrive and the teacher would place our new books on our desks so that we would find them after recess. It was like Christmas but better!!
2. This vintage old medium format camera I bought on Ebay. I already have a Diana F+, I have no idea why I bid on this item. I was hoping that someone would outbid me because I only bid $8 for it, but no one did.
3. My brand new DSLR!!!!! YES I finally bought one, it was kind of an impulse buy. Ildo recently bought one and I got jealous and decided to buy one too. I'm such a loser but I don't care cause I finally have one!!! It's a Canon XS...yes I wanted the XSi but this one was on sale so...YAY!

I'm going to London this week!!
Someone better give me a HUGE chunk of their time cause I haven't caught up with them in ages *COUGHCOUGH* I don't care if they are studying, I will just sit beside them as they study while I breathe down their neck till they finally agree to chill with me...HAHAHA

I should give a skincare update and product review soon because I've been using so many products lately that it should be a nice thing to share the knowledge.

Anyways till next time!!

Camera Date.

I haven't updated in so long!
So I decided to upload a video update.

My feet hurt.

Okay for some odd reason every time I go to another country I end up walking like there was a war and all the cars stopped working which requires me to walk across the countryside to find water and food because aliens have taken over and there is nobody left on the planet...okay maybe I'm still tired..0_0

But ANYWAYS yes my feet hurt!!!
I'm proud though! I took the subway all by myself yesterday (haha I sound like a 5 year old).

Yesterday I went around to random places in Seoul with a fellow teacher of mine named Mina. I took the following picture (that's her in it) because I was amazed at the subway station. We were walking underground and I asked her where the subway was and she looked at me confused and pointed right beside where we were standing. And then I realized over the past 5 years they had installed these cool clear glass WALLS that open when the subway arrives! TOO COOL! Except apparently they put them there to prevent suicide jumpers. Hm.



And then at night I met up with Jason.
We went to this Sam-gyub-sal place and ordered some meat. And then when the meat came out, Jason's like 'Oh I don't eat pork'. *WHAT?* So I had to finish (almost finish) the whole thing by myself. I was so full (but secretly really satisfied too)



More meat.



Anyways it's Sunday! So we're going to church soon. It's a church called Jubilee and I've heard some really good things about it. The sermons are all in English so that's a big relief! I know that God has something in store for me, even in Korea. I still miss everyone back home though!

Gimpo. Bimpo.

AH!

I'm here finally. The big motherland Korea!

I have yet to find an adapter so I have to make this entry pretty short because my battery is going to die soon...T_T

Tonight is the end of my second day here but I feel like it's been a week. It's only about 10pm right now but I'm dead tired. My dreams for a normal sleeping pattern has finally come true!

Anyways here are some pictures & writing...


This is a cool picture I took outside the plane window. I just it looked so sick how the moon was reflecting off of the plane, I felt like I was a bird or an alien spaceship. Okay so I'm more than dead tired, so a lot of what I say may not make sense. Oh well!


This is a picture of my halmuhnee (grandma) and myself. I visited her yesterday with my grandpa. When I came, my grandpa asked her whether she recognized me. 'Molla-yoh?' And she kept staring at me and then she made a face of angst and said 'Moh-re-get-suh', which means 'I don't know!' It's hard for her to talk and have facial expressions. I think something messed up her nervous system when she collapsed a year and a half ago from hypoglycemic issues. Anyways after a bit my grandpa said in Korena, 'It's Lisa! Lisa don't you remember?' And then my grandma made another face of angst and cried out 'Ee gae Lisa yah!' (this is lisa!!) as if she was in pain that she didn't recognize me at first. It was really heartbreaking for me but I kept it all inside and wore a smile for her. For some odd reason I felt like the things I learned in my Health Science class about aging people really helped me to be more understanding of the issue. Although my grandma has lost some functions I still know she's the same person inside. I love her and I hope I can visit her again~


This is my grandpa saying bye to my grandma.


This my aunt and one of my little cousins! She's so cute and I'm thankful that my aunt taught her English so we could converse in English. She has this huge drawing pad that she showed me and it's so creative! She makes up characters and it's kind of like the notebook that Rachel has and what she draws in her notepad (Rachel if you are reading this...tehe). Anyways really sweet kid. Oh! She's the younger sister of the cousin I talked about in my previous entry!

Okay that's it for now.
I am so exhausted. I'm sharing a room with Carol and her friend Mina. I'll take pics another time.
I'm kind of scared but I really want to venture off on my own tomorrow but like i said I'm scared. Haha..ha. *sigh*.
But I really need a watch. But yea Sharon and her cousin Esther are right beside us so it's pretty nice.
Training starts Monday! Apparently the Princeton Review hired 60 summer teachers which sounds absolutely mad. I wonder how they admin all that.

Well till another time when I have stories!