Tuesday, April 17, 2007


What is the difference between personality and character?
When you change people do you change their personality too?
Can a social butterfly be friends with everyone?
Why are girls so concerned about their weight?
Would I be that concerned about my weight if I gained more weight?
Why can't everybody be open?
Why do I always judge myself and in turn judge others?
Why do I run away from the thing that you tell me?
Why do I feel like some girls don't like me when I didn't do anything to them?
What is love?
What is the 'fear of the Lord'? Why is this fear the beginning of wisdom?
Why am I so afraid of abandonment?
Why can't I be honest and yet proclaim how honest I am?
Why do I have a misconception of who I am?
What does it mean to be a friend?
A good girlfriend?
A good wife?
A good servant?
How come I do not have a mentor
What are my spiritual gifts?

and so forth

Saturday, April 7, 2007

Gossip, Envy, & Love

Gossip creates envy, so much misunderstanding, confusing relationships, a hidden undertone to commnication.

I remember I gossiped so much in middle school,
but after I met Jesus in the beginning of high school, I told myself that I wasn't going to gossip.
I didn't gossip. I think probably I did a bit but I had a very keen conscious of it.

Now I'm so much older and I feel like I do it all the time.
I hate myself for doing it.
I don't even like hearing it, but sometimes I feel like if I don't listen to it,
nobody would confide anything in me.
Gossip destructs because you lose a friend and gain another.

There are times when we sincerely want to discuss feelings of angst and bitterness that is within us.
I just don't think we should talk about these with friends first.
Go to the THRONE before you go to the PHONE.
God speaks to me about my issues. This is so much better than friends who may or may not support your feelings and thoughts. People are biased and cannot fully know what you are going through. But God does.

Because I gossip at times, I feel like people gossip about me. This is unhealthy, it proves that Bible verse.

To the pure, all things are pure, but to those who are corrupted and do not believe, nothing is pure. In fact, both their minds and consciences are corrupted.
Titus 1:15

I want to stop! I want to love.
Love is what covers all wrongs. It laughs at these stupid thoughts that go through your head. It secures peace and true relationship.

I am too proud.
I am not perfect.
I am not near anything what I want to be, but I want to let go of even that.
Let God make me into the one he wants to make me, not what I think is the best me.

Letting go & Balancing & Trusting are the hardest parts of being with God I think.